Without a vision, we are doomed to wander aimlessly.
2024 has felt quite aimless for me. I haven’t really known where I’ve been looking to go. That doesn’t mean I haven’t achieved things. I released a new book in the last weeks, despite being at the lowest ebb of my energetic vibrations.
I’ve also done more in understanding myself through a scientific lens than I’ve ever done before. I received an Autism assessment, did numerous other tests including an IQ test and gained a ‘highly gifted’ evaluation, learnt a bucket ton on neurodivergence, built a better understanding of taking care of myself through facial and dental routines, as well as learnt more about health and nutrition than I’ve ever previously done.
Yet there’s been a sense of not knowing what my next step forward has been. Much of my focus has been on the shifting sands beneath my feet, rather than up towards the stars.
Understanding myself has been incredibly valuable. It’s allowed me to ground myself more vividly into my own unique reality. Without the things I learnt this year, I wouldn’t have the foundations to now radically spring myself forward.
As the year comes to a close, I’ve found myself returning to the bigger picture – my big ‘why’.
I’ll be honest, I’ve had a lot of fear around this. The idea of having a big vision had become a daunting thing – when I dared to ‘dream big’, I found myself confronted with practicalities. This quickly turned into a game of logic: rationalising my dreams to the point of making them more ‘tangible’. But in doing this, I was also massively toning them down.
The point of dreams are to aim big, to stretch our thinking beyond what we currently think is possible. By going into the rational, we are losing our connection to what is beyond ‘realistic’.
One thing that’s really shifted my mindset on this is the idea of having a dream so big, that it would be literally impossible to achieve.
It might sound bizarre, but actually having an impossible dream can be very soothing. When I know that my dream is impossible, it actually takes away the pressure of needing to achieve it. There’s suddenly an access to a greater creative freedom and play. I can focus on doing things that fit towards my vision without getting too worried about the result. From this point, every success is a bonus, rather than needing to be quantified as one step out of a million.
So what is my dream?
In April 2022, I went to The Ultimate Experience in London. It was here that I made the commitment to finish my first book, Make Diversity Matter to You by that year. A commitment I kept.
During the event, I wrote myself a vision of what I wanted to create. I had to find my old phone to find the note, and exactly what I wrote. It read:
Revolutionise how policy and advocacy work is done in Brussels and London through better organisational structuring, stronger management capability and greater employee empowerment and wellbeing
This vision still resonates, but I’ve since refined it to be simpler and closer to language of the heart:
Revolutionise politics and the way people relate to it as coming from innate love
My dream is to change the way politics takes place. I dream of a world where policies and politics plays out in a way that comes from innate love as the first, and most important place.
This simple change would revolutionise the world. We would rise above the amount of petty squabbling, misaligned political goals and lack of empathy for one another.
I don’t doubt that many people will scoff at this vision. It is far too naive, lacks understanding of how politics ‘works’ and is delusional about how people ‘really’ are.
I refuse to believe that things have to be this way. In fact, I would say that change is coming, one way or another. The status quo is not working for a growing majority of people. New ways of being are necessary for us to move forward in this world.
I don’t know if I’ll ever fully succeed in my goal. But what I do know is that by pursuing this vision for the rest of my life, I’ll get much further than if I compromise.
P.S. if this vision resonates with you, I would love to chat. Sharing ideas is how we bring them closer to reality.